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Back to December- Iceland x Reader

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I'm so glad you made time to see me.
How's life? Tell me how's your family?
I haven't seen them in a while.

"Hey ______." he said.
"Hello Emil." she replied.
"So...how's life?" he asked.
"Good I guess." she mumbled.
"Ah." he breathed.
"How's your family?" she piped.
"Lukas is still pestering, Matthias is annoying but I'm used to it by now." was his answer.
"Cool." she murmured.

You've been good, busier than ever,
We small talk, work and the weather,
Your guard is up and I know why.

Emil's been seeing you more than he wanted. He'd always pass the store where you worked. In fact that's how you met the Icelandic man. He was asking for some licorice and you gladly gave him some.

He wondered if ______ would take him back. After all the pain and suffering would she forgive him? He knew she was a fighter and that she had a hard time to forgive people but...would he be forgiven?

Because the last time you saw me
Is still burned in the back of your mind.
You gave me roses and I left them there to die.

*Flashback*

"Emil are you ready to go?" ______ asked as she knocked on his door.

Lately her Icelandic boyfriend was acting stranger than usual. He stopped talking and he rarely saw her. But she loved him above all else, she just hoped that he would stop this and continue their relationship. Heck, she was more of the man in this relationship, Currently she was at his house with roses. He opened the door with a strange look on his face.

"______.... I've been thinking. This isn't working out." he stated.
"What?" her smile faltered.
"I'm sorry." he breathed.
"You jerk! I gave you everything! Emil, I've tried to make you happy, I stayed by your side and I'm the one who tries in this one-sided relationship! Emil Steilsson I hate you!" _____ sobbed.

She threw the flowers at him and ran from him through the cold. Even though he still loved her he remained in place and closed the door. Then he collapsed to the floor and started sobbing as well. He couldn't tell her why it was over. It was because he was a country, he was Iceland.

So this is me swallowing my pride,
Standing in front of you saying, "I'm sorry for that night,"
And I go back to December all the time.
It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you.
Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine.
I'd go back to December, turn around and make it all right.
I go back to December all the time.

"I'm sorry for that night." he whispered reaching for your hand.
She only glanced at their hands and sighed.
She must have felt it too. The warmth and love that radiated from it. She shook her head and walked out of the cafe.

These days I haven't been sleeping,
Staying up, playing back myself leavin'.
When your birthday passed and I didn't call.
And I think about summer, all the beautiful times,
I watched you laughing from the passenger side.
Realized that I loved you in the fall.

He never was the same after that. He always brought a pained smile across his face when he remembered a stupid joke you told him. He still has nightmares about the day you left him, or to be more precise; the day he was forced to break your heart.

He loved the summer days and nights he spent with you. At day he would play tag or some games with you in the forest. He'd end up getting you and was rewarded with a kiss.
His car is where memories were also. One time after a meeting, he told his girlfriend about his annoying friends and she made jokes to make him smile.
He loved her. When he first met you in fall was where it began. But he never stopped loving her.

And then the cold came, the dark days when fear crept into my mind
You gave me all your love and all I gave you was "Goodbye".

Back then Emil was worried about her finding out his secret. Would she leave him? He made his mind and decided to end it.

When he opened the door and saw her smiling face he broke even more. He hated himself from that starting point. She loved him more than he deserved.

So this is me swallowing my pride
Standing in front of you saying, "I'm sorry for that night."
And I go back to December all the time.
It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you,
Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine.
I'd go back to December, turn around and change my own mind
I go back to December all the time.

As she walked out of the cafe he ran after her. He held her close to him and he breathed in her sweet scent.

"I'm sorry for that night." he whimpered.
She didn't reply or move.
"I-I truly am." he cried softly.
______ only removed herself from his hug and walked away.

I miss your tanned skin, your sweet smile,
So good to me, so right
And how you held me in your arms that September night –
The first time you ever saw me cry.

______ was so gentle and loving towards him. Her sweet smile lit up the dark chambers of his heart and she was so comforting...

During the beginning of their relationship after having a panic attack at the thought of her finding out his secret he broke down. She wrapped her gentle arms around his figure and kissed his tears away.

Maybe this is wishful thinking,
Probably mindless dreaming,
But if we loved again, I swear I'd love you right.

He ran to her again and grabbed her by the sleeve, she froze again but didn't respond. The memory of him made her heart cold.

"Please! Give me another chance! I'll give you all my love! My all!" he promised.
Silence.
The heartbroken beauty strut away from him again and walked straight to her house. Trying to be true, he followed her to prove his love to her.

I'd go back in time and change it but I can't.
So if the chain is on your door I understand.

He walked after her and ran to her doorstep after she slammed the door shut. He sat on the steps. He wondered, would he love you again? Would she allow him to cherish her?

But this is me swallowing my pride
Standing in front of you saying, "I'm sorry for that night."
And I go back to December...
It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you,
Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine.
I'd go back to December, turn around and make it all right.
I'd go back to December, turn around and change my own mind

"I'm sorry for that night." he cried.
Emil sat at her doorstep sobbing and holding himself. He kept remembering the painful nights he endured without her. But still no ______ answered the door.

I go back to December all the time.
All the time.

Emil stayed out there until night and until his tears turned to ice. He fell asleep on her doorstep in the cold.

Extended Ending~

Emil woke up not to the cold wind, but to the warm comfort of a blanket. He opened his eyes and saw a place he recognized too quickly. ______'s living room. He tried to move but felt a weight on the blanket.

______ was sleeping halfway on the couch. Her head rested against his cheek but the rest of her body was on the rug. Her arms were folded under her arms and she sat down against the couch.

When she heard him shuffling she opened his eyes and smiled slightly. She walked off into another room and returned with two mugs full of hot chocolate.

Then she leaned over and kissed Emil passionately. He responded and kissed back. He missed the sensation of pure love.
When they stopped she looked at Emil with a look he memorized as pure love.

"Let's start over again."





This one-shot is for Christmas, I like this song but it was kind of sad so I changed it up a bit. I reversed the roles because, hey boys can be troubled too after a breakup. Plus, Iceland just seems like the type to regret and still love someone. I love Iceland and gave him a happy ending. Hope you enjoyed! 


Hidekaz Himaruya owns Hetalia
Taylor Swift owns 'Back To December'
You own yourself
I own the plot.

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MeridaHofferson's avatar
This is the first story of your's I've read, but I can tell you're great at writing!